The extraordinary Parker Palmer wrote he was a “contemplative by catastrophe.” Krista Tippett in an interview with Tim Ferriss talked about wisdom and age. And Alain de Botton talked with Krista Tippett about love and relationships. All the while, I struggled with my own inner demons and questioned everything…all my effort, my dedication, my persistence…why? and for what? And at … Read More
So here goes….my 2016 review. Make yourself a cup of tea, and enjoy….. Recovering from November 5th Big Blue Sky inaugural event was how 2016 started. A small team had pulled together an extraordinary feat. For me 30 years of attempting to pull together passionate diverse people to collaborate on a Moonshot type projects finally succeeded. This beautiful ecosystem lived … Read More
I have allowed myself to be beaten down by life. There…I said it. I have seen just how much I have let this be so. How much I have given up on dreams, how I have become afraid to step back into the arena once again, in case I fall flat. Again. How I moved to this place one micro … Read More
Today, a public holiday in my state, started with the “super” moon lighting me as I lay in bed. Its quite lovely to be dozing/sleeping in full moon light. Then a walk on the beach, there in time to catch the sun rising over the Pacific. One of those perfect days, hardly a cloud, warm autumn sunshine. The king tide … Read More
1 am, I am awake. This morning it is not the same as yesterday, where my 2.15 am awake time remained until I got up just before 5 am, and the prevailing feeling was one of fear. The perpetual question was how. How am I going to pull out of this one. How am I going to manifest…how how how? … Read More
Today April 18th, at about 1.19 pm, I said enough. No more. I am done. I am done with living in fear, and scarcity. I am done with feeling like there is something wrong with me. Like I don’t have the money gene. Like life is hard. Like I have to work so hard to make ends meet. I … Read More
In my daily contemplation I have been inspired to write about the male partner I am holding a place for. And to share it here….on my blog…in public….ouch…deep breath….quite scary to do this… So here goes…(and because this is an appeal to the Universe, please pass this on to anyone you think a likely match.) And, for all the singles … Read More
Going above and beyond in any domain and breaking through in the way William James writes is about a beautiful combination of letting go of MY neediness and wantingness, and applying effort because we intuitively know that we must get to the other side in order to have the essential self, that part of us that rests in being and truth, rise above the small ego bound self who wants to quit, or finds it too hard, or boring, or painful, or …..?
What did I expect? I expected I would be more successful, according to the ways we define success in our culture. Basically, that I would have more “stuff”. At the least a house, actually several, in a few exotic locations, probably a lot more money, even a relationship. I expected that from the outside view I would fit all the categories of a successful self-made woman. I would be famous and wealthy.
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